From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF: Last Light Part A/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:03:48 GMT
 

*****
The characters are the creation and property of Chris Carter, Ten Thirteen
Productions, and Fox Television.  No copyright infringement is intended.
*****

Here is a new story.  It is to take place after End Game but before Anasazi.
It is rated PG.

                                  Last Light
                                   Part A
                         by Agents Haines and Willis,
                                Marmalade Squad
 

Location:  White Mountains, New Hampshire;   7-15pm: 1/16/95.

"What the hell _is_ this, Mulder?" Scully asked, leaning forward in her seat.

Mulder glanced from the road to his partner, who was sitting in the passenger
seat of their Bureau-issued car.  She was peering at the tape deck Mulder had
fixed to the dashboard, attempting to read the label on the cassette that was
currently playing.  He noted with amusement that he was careful to keep to
himself that her nose was wrinkled as if the tape was offending her sense of
smell as well as her musical taste.

"This," he said, with no small degree of relish, "is Pearl Jam.  And I think
it's pretty good."

Scully winced as another burst of squalling guitar cut across the vocals.
"Keep your eyes on the road, Mulder," she said absently. "Don't you find this
just a little...abrasive?"

Mulder, who had been carefully watching the road after her reminder, flicked
his eyes back at her.  "You remember the agreement?  Whoever happens to be
driving gets to pick the tunes.  Did I complain when you dug out that old
Beach Boys thing?  Nope.  I'm just trying to broaden your horizons."

"Mulder, the road."  Scully huddled deeper inside her blazer.  Despite the car
heater being on, the bitter cold of the mountain air seemed to seep in through
every crack and crevice in the car's body work. "Anyway, what's wrong with the
Beach Boys?  It's good to drive to."

Mulder sighed, squinting out of the windshield at the road ahead.  It was
almost twilight, and while the visibility was still good, clouds were massing
on the horizon to the left.  "Scully, there's nothing wrong with the Beach
Boys --"  He held up a finger as she opened her mouth "-- in _moderation_.  If
I hear 'Good Vibrations' one more time, I'm going to bug out."

Scully settled back in her seat, letting go a sigh of her own.  She knew that
Mulder was as frustrated with this assignment as she was, especially since
Skinner could've assigned any agents to it.  But on paper this assignment had
seemed like a nice change of pace from their usual cases:  take a Bureau car,
drive to Allentown, pick up a witness.  Except that said witness had done a
bunk two days before she and Mulder arrived, leaving them to chase from city
to city after her.  Scully looked out the window.  The weather was closing in
on them.  She sighed again.  And Mulder had brought along the tape collection
from hell.

At first the tape player had seemed like a good way to pass the time.  Bureau
cars were not fitted with stereos, but -- as Mulder had said --who was going
to know?  But as the assignment dragged on, they began to run out of things to
play...and while both of them appreciated most of the classical composers,
their taste in more modern music couldn't be further apart.

Scully decided to appeal to his better nature.  "Mulder, I have a proposition.
If you let me change this tape, you can chose the next two."

Mulder shook his head.  "Uh-uh, because I know what's coming next."

"What?"

He grinned.  "'The Best Of Simon and Garfunkel'"

Scully smiled back despite herself.  "How did you guess?"

"You've got that 'The Sound Of Silence' look in your eye again."

She laughed.  "OK," she said, "I'll concede.  If I can change the tape, not
only can you pick the next two, but I'll buy a whole new one -- of your choice
-- at the next service station.  My final offer."

"And if I decline?"

"Then I'll kick you out of the car and you can walk across the mountain.  And
I'll change the tape anyway."

Mulder laughed.  "You win," he said.

Scully sighed with relief and leant forward to root through the box of tapes
at her feet.  "OK," she said, "it's too cold for classical, you don't
 want the Beach Boys _or_ Paul and Art..."

Mulder concentrated on the road as she rummaged.  The clouds were approaching
fast, and the light was failing.  He decided that the next motel they came
across would have to serve as home for the night. They could pick up the trail
in the morning.

The first few spots of snow hit the windshield, and Mulder cursed under his
breath.  He listened with half an ear to Scully's monologue, mentally
calculating the best place to slip a word in edgeways.

"Scully..." he began, but got no further.  Suddenly and without any warning, a
figure lunged from the trees that lined the road.  Mulder swore viciously and
hauled the wheel over hard in a desperate attempt to avoid the person.  Scully
yelped as the top of her head hit the dashboard.

The figure flashed by on the left of the car with bare inches to spare. Mulder
struggled with the wheel, attempting to bring the car back on a straight
course before the front wheels hit the embankment that bordered the road.  The
wheels slid uselessly across the wet tarmac.

Scully screamed and braced her hand against the dash.  A second later she
regretted this action as Mulder slammed on the brakes.  As her momentum threw
her forward, Scully could feel her wrist being bent backwards as her torso
slammed hard into her elbow.  She closed her eyes against the pain, trying to
determine if her ribs were merely bruised or something worse.

Gradually Scully realized that the car was no longer moving.  She opened her
eyes and tried to take stock of the situation.  The car was partly off the
road, tilting at an angle toward the trees which seemed to extend forever in
either direction.  Scully hadn't noticed before how remote this road was, and
it made her nervous.  And the sky suddenly seemed much darker than before as
the snow continued to fall.

And Mulder was sitting in the driver's seat, his head against the steering
wheel, a thin trickle of blood easing down from his forehead.  He didn't seem
to be moving.  Scully cursed the Bureau for not equipping the older cars with
airbags.

"Mulder?!" Scully asked worriedly, starting to lean towards her still partner.

However, she stopped when a searing pain shot through her body.  She sat back
in her own seat, her breath coming in short gasps.  At least she now knew that
she had some broken ribs.

"Mulder?!" Scully asked again, this time just moving her good arm to her
partner's shoulder.  "Are you alright?!"

Mulder moaned.  "Perhaps 'Bridge Over Troubled Water' _would_ be appropriate
about now."

Scully laughed and instantly regretted it as another sharp pain hit.  "Are you
all right?"

Mulder leaned his head back against the head rest, his eyes still closed, and
Scully could now see the small gash on his forehead that was causing the
blood.  "My head is splitting, but other than that I think I'm fine," answered
Mulder.

"Good," Scully said.  "Because I didn't get off as easy as you."

Mulder opened his eyes and turned toward Scully, but she could tell almost
immediately that something was wrong.

"Mulder, what is it?"

"Perhaps I was a bit too hasty in my earlier assessment."

"Why?"

"Because I can't see a thing."

Scully leaned forward in her seat, hissing with pain as her damaged ribs
ground together.  "Nothing?" she asked.  "Not even dim light?"

Mulder tried to smile.  "I can't even tell if my eyes are open," he replied.
"What kind of shape are you in?"

Scully leant back into her seat.  "My wrist is sprained.  My ribs...I don't
know.  There might be one or two broken."

Mulder passed his hand in front of his eyes.  "Looks like I got off lightly,"
he said.  "Is the car drivable?"

Scully leant forward in her seat.  "Ouch."  She peered over the dash and
sighed.  The front end of the car was buried in a road-side ditch. If she and
Mulder had been able-bodied, they would have been able to drag it out.  Maybe.
Considering her broken ribs and Mulder's blindness, the odds tilted somewhat
sharply in the ditch's favour.

Mulder heard her sigh.  "Not good?"

Scully gingerly felt her ribs with her good hand.  "No, not good," she
replied.  The snow began to fall heavier.  She thrust aside for a moment the
clamour of voices inside her that threatened to drown out her thoughts --_what
if Mulder's skull is fractured?  What if you puncture a lung?  What happens
when the night falls and the temperature drops?_ -- she tried to concentrate
on the most immediate problems.  "Have you got your cellphone handy?"

Mulder reached into his jacket pocket.  He pulled out his mobile phone and
gave it a little shake.  Something rattled inside the casing. Knowing that it
was almost certainly useless, he pulled up the antenna anyway.  There was no
dial tone.  "Scully?"

Distracted, she didn't hear Mulder's voice until he repeated his question.
"Mmmm?"

"Scully, I'm sorry."

She glanced over at her partner and saw the worry and fear on his face.  His
eyes moved uselessly in their sockets, seeking for reassurance.  She felt a
tug at her heart and reached over and grasped his hand.  "S'okay," she
murmured.  "What happened, anyway?"

Mulder sighed.  "I saw someone run into the road, and I swerved to avoid them.
And that was all she wrote."

The ever-increasing snow fall brought Scully to an abrupt decision.  "We have
to find shelter," she said.  "There might be a service station or motel
nearby."  _I hope_, she added mentally.  "If we stay here, we'll freeze.
Plus, we both need medical attention."

Mulder considered.  "Could we run the heater and shelter in the car?"

Scully peered at the gas meter.  "We're too low on fuel," she replied. "Plus
which, if the exhaust is blocked or damaged, we could asphyxiate on the carbon
monoxide.  So, no choice, really."

He sighed.  "Guess not.  Our winter coats are in the trunk."  He gently
disengaged his hand from hers and unbuckled his seat belt. "Right," he said.

He reached over and felt around for the door handle.  Scully, seeing that he
intended to make the first move out of the car, protested. "Mulder, let me go
first.  You can't see, plus you might have a skull fracture."

Mulder found the door handle and pulled.  The door clicked open and cold air
immediately flushed the warmth from the car.  "And you, my dear," he replied,
"have a damaged wrist, and those ribs of yours might puncture something vital.
Stay there until I get some coats.  Then we'll see if you can walk or not.
Pop the trunk open, would you?"

Scully shook her head.  "Obstinate pig," she murmured as Mulder slipped out of
his seat and leant against the side of the car.  "Stupid, male, obstinate,
sexist pig."  She reached her hand forward and pulled the trunk release
catch.

Outside the car, Mulder paused until he heard the trunk pop open. _Just
pretend that you've got your eyes closed_ he told himself. _Easy-peasy_.  He
gingerly felt his way along the side of the car. Rushing and giving himself a
broken ankle would only worsen the situation.  The cold air nipped playfully
at his cheeks and nose.

He reached the trunk without mishap and sighed with relief.  He pulled it open
and reached inside.  His fingers crashed painfully against something hard and
metallic -- the toolbox, he presumed --and he cursed under his breath.
_Stupid, stupid_, he thought.  He reached in again, this time more carefully.
His palm brushed the soft material of Scully's and his own winter jackets and
he pulled them out.  As an afterthought, he felt around until he found the
first aid box and the flashlight as well.

He negotiated his way back down the car and slumped back into his seat.  He
slowly pulled the door shut.  "Scully?" he said.

There was a terrifying moment when she didn't respond, and Mulder felt his
heart lurch up into his throat.  "Scully?" he repeated, a little louder.

"Mulder?" Her voice had never sounded so good.

"Scully, you scared me.  Didn't you hear me come back?"

"No...sorry.  I was examining my ribs."

Mulder smiled.  "You mean you've got your shirt open?  Of all the times you
could possibly pick to show off your body, you pick the one when I can't see a
damn thing?"

Scully laughed.  "Mulder, I'm bruised, battered and bleeding.  Besides which,
I've got gooseflesh like you've never seen before.  I don't think you'd be
overly inspired."

"How are they?  Is the damage serious?"

In fact, Scully was feeling a little more optimistic.  While there was no
doubt that one rib was definitely broken, it was a clean break with no
splintering.  She thought that the chances of puncturing anything were fairly
slim.  The other ribs seemed to be merely bruised.  "Help me brace my wrist?"
she asked Mulder.

While they splinted her wrist using tape from the first aid kit and an ice
scraper Scully found under the seat, she filled Mulder in on her self-
diagnosis.  "So you'll be OK to walk?" he asked.

"As I said before, we don't really have a choice.  Whatever happens, we'll be
better off staying together in these conditions.  I think the chances of
another car happening along are faint in the extreme. We'll freeze if we stay
here."

"OK," he said, "let's walk the land."

Outside the car, Scully bound her chest with a bandage.  She found that
walking was painful, but not impossible.  Mulder helped her into her coat,
then she leaned back into the car and picked up their guns, which had been in
the glove compartment.

Mulder held out his hand.  "Lead on, great leader," he teased.

Scully shivered inside her coat.  "This is not going to be fun," she said.

"No.  And if one of us shouldn't make it, there's something I'd like you to
know."

"What's that?" Scully asked.

Mulder laughed  "You know what they say about one sense benefiting if another
is taken away?  Well, I may be male, stupid, obstinate and a pig, but I'm not
sexist."

Scully smiled, shivering inside her coat.  "OK," she said, "I'll concede that
one.  Sorry."  She reached over and took his hand with her good one.  "Shall
we walk?."

Scully and Mulder began walking up the road, but after only a few steps Scully
stopped, and Mulder could hear her gasping for breath.

"Are you okay, Dana?" Mulder asked worriedly.

"I don't think we can do this, Mulder," she said.

"Why?"

"Well, I've treated people with broken ribs before, but I've never known how
painful they could be," she said.  "And each step seems to make it worse."

"Then why don't you lean on me?" Mulder said, sliding his hand up her arm and
around her back.

"Mulder, you're too tall," Scully said, reaching her good arm, which still
held the flashlight, around to Mulder's far shoulder.  "Besides, I don't see
any break in the trees for at least a mile, and I don't even think I could
walk that far anyway.  And it'll be dark soon, too, and then neither of us
will be able to see."

"But what about your 'we have no choice -- we'll have to walk'?"

"Well, I have to admit the idea of laying down in the snow and freezing is
starting to seem rather tempting."

"Why don't we just head through the trees towards that light?"

Scully turned immediately to her partner.  "Your sight's back?!" she asked
excitedly.

But Mulder's forehead was crinkled, as if he were very confused. "No," he
said.  "But I could've sworn that just for a moment I saw a light off that
way."

Scully slowly reached over with her bandaged hand and waved it in front of
Mulder's face but he had no reaction.  She then turned toward where Mulder's
blank eyes were staring and, although there was no light, there was indeed a
cabin about 500 feet away that was barely visible through the snow.  "Mulder,
how could you see that cabin if you can't see my hand in front of your face?"

"I don't know," he said.  "But is there really a cabin?"

"Yes, thank God," Scully said.  "And I think it's reachable in the state we're
in."

"New Hampshire?" Mulder teased.

Scully rolled her eyes -- Mulder chose the weirdest times for his sense of
humor.  "Let's go," she said.

"Just take it slow," Mulder said.  "Lean on me.  And remember, we don't have
that far to go."

Scully started to lead them into the forest.  Mulder's support made a huge
difference as far as the pain from her ribs went, but it was still not
pleasant.  This was complicated by the fact that the darkening sky and the
accumulating snow was making it difficult for Scully to see the ground, and as
a result the two of them were constantly stumbling on unseen rocks and twigs.

After a while in silence, Scully said, "Mulder?"

"Yes?"

"Is your eyesight any better?"

"No."

Scully sighed.  "I'm going to want to examine you when we get to the cabin.  I
don't know of any head injury that causes loss of sight that can momentarily
bring it back.  I'm afraid something's terribly wrong."

"Maybe I didn't really see anything," Mulder said.  "Maybe my mind just
thought I saw a flash."

"But in the exact direction of the cabin?  And I never would've seen the cabin
if it hadn't been for you."

"How much further do we have to go?" Mulder asked as he stumbled on yet
another rock.

"We're about halfway there."  She paused and then asked, "What if there's no
phone?  How will we get out of here then?"

"Let's worry about that when we get there.  And if there's no phone, at least
we'll be out of the snow for the night.  We can worry about getting out of
here then."

"Perhaps we should've left a note on the car, saying we'd gone off in this
direction."

"But our tracks through the snow will be visible -- anyone stopping for the
car would be able to tell where we went, won't they?"

"I suppose," Scully said.  "But what if the door to the cabin is locked?"

"Why are you worrying about all these things?" Mulder asked, exasperated.

"It keeps my mind off the pain."

"Oh," Mulder said.  "Then, by all means, worry all you want."

After a seemingly endless period of pain and cold, they reached the side of
the cabin.  Scully leaned against the door, her eyes closed, grimly telling
herself that she would not, under any circumstances, faint.

"Are there any lights on?"

Scully opened her eyes with a groan.  She peered through the glass panel set
into the front of the door.  "No, no lights," she said.  There was a knocker
set above the window, and she brought it down hard on the wood.  Her battered
ribs ground together and she yelped in pain.

Mulder stepped awkwardly forward.  "Here, let me," he said.

Scully guided his hand to the knocker and he brought it down hard enough to
rattle the glass.  After waiting a couple of minutes, he did it again.

"I guess no one's in," he said eventually.

Scully looked up at the sky.  The snow was now falling in earnest and the
clouds formed an impenetrable cover.  The chances of them reaching another
shelter in their current condition were negligible.  Her feet were freezing,
and her cheeks and hands felt painfully chilled.  She began to wonder if she
wasn't already suffering from frostbite.

"Break it," she said.

Mulder, who had been leaning against the door with his eyes closed,
straightened.  "I guess the FBI can pay for the damage," he said and then
paused.  "But maybe you should do it?"  He still felt awkward and lost without
his sight.

Scully was shivering violently inside her coat.  Her lips felt numb,
blistered.  She tried to answer, but all that came out was, "I--"
The wind picked up, howling around the cabin as if it were as frustrated as
they at being denied access.  _I'm slipping into shock_ she thought.

"Nevermind, I'll do it."  Mulder placed his fingertips on the glass panel
closest to the side of the door, marking its position.  He drew his gun from
its holster and checked the safety.  He then reversed his grip so that he held
the barrel, with the butt pointing down as a crude hammer.  He rested it on
the glass for a moment between his fingers.  "Watch your eyes," he said, and
Scully stepped away from the door into the full teeth of the gale.  Snow
whipped across her face.

Mulder brought the gun down onto the glass sharply, cracking the window.  he
repeated the action, and the glass shattered inwards.  He ran the gun around
the frame, knocking all of the shards out, before carefully reaching in and
unlatching the door.  He holstered his gun and beckoned Scully forwards.

She pushed the door open with her good hand and stepped inside, broken glass
crunching beneath her winter boots.  There was a light switch on the wall
beside the door, and she flipped it on.  "Come on in," she said.

===========================================================================

From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF:  Last Light -- Part B/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:09:52 GMT"
 

Last Light -- Part B

As Mulder felt his way through the door, Scully moved forward down the
hallway.  Stairs directly in front of her lead up to the second floor, while
there were two closed doors set into the hall, one on her left and one on
her right.

Mulder closed the front door and stood awkwardly in the hall, the fingertips
of one hand resting on the wall.  His head turned this way and that, seeking
for some visual stimulus and finding none.  Scully reached over and took his
hand.

"Scully, you're freezing!" he exclaimed.  Her hand felt as cold as ice, and he
could feel the tremors in her skin as her body tried in vain to generate some
heat.

Scully opened her mouth to reply and found with a distant, detached kind of
amazement that her voice had deserted her totally.  _Traitor_ she thought
lazily.  Her fingers and toes felt as though they had been stolen away and
replaced with replicas cast from blue ice.  The pain of her broken ribs felt
very small and very far away.  Even inside the cabin, she could still feel the
wind howling around her face.  _I'm going to faint_ she thought.  _I'm
falling..._

Her vision clouded over and she felt herself begin to sway.  She barely heard
Mulder's cry of alarm.  Desperate not to lose consciousness, she poked herself
in the side with her free hand.

Her head jerked up and she let out a hissed curse through clenched teeth.  The
pain from her sprained wrist and broken rib was a blaze of heat, melting away
the comfortable chill in an instant.  Her good hand spasmed inside Mulder's,
her nails -- sensibly short as they were -- driving into his palm.

Mulder yelped.  "Scully?!  Are you okay?!"

Sweat and snow had plastered Scully's hair to her head, and she flicked it
aside.  She knew that, sooner or later, the lassitude would return and she
would be lucky to fight it off again.  Before then, they needed to find a
source of warmth.  While Mulder seemed no worse for wear except for his
blindness, she knew that a combination of shock and cold would probably soon
finish her off.  Gritting teeth, she looked about the hall.  _Right_, she
thought.

"Mulder, stay here.  I'm going to see if I can find a fire.  I'll be right
back."

He opened his mouth to protest, but she cut him off:  "...and don't argue!"
His mouth snapped shut again, mostly from surprise, she thought with dry,
tired humour.

Scully moved down the hall and opened the door on her left.  It led to a well-
appointed kitchen.  It seemed that the owners of the cabin had bought it so
that they could boast to their friends about living on the edge of the
wilderness while still retaining most of the comforts of home.  _Well done,
Sherlock_, the voice that was powering her brittle determination cut in, _now
let's get a move on, shall we?_

Her ribs were now sending up a chorus of distress at being jostled around.
She moved across the hall and opened the other door.  This one led to an open-
plan living and dining room.  Scully switched on the light.  Set against the
far wall was a gas fire.  She sighed with relief, hoping that the owners of
the cabin had not decided to move somewhere more clement during the winter
months and switched the supply off at the main.

"Scully," Mulder called from the hall.

Scully took one more quick glance around the living room and then went back
out to her partner.  "What?" she asked.

"If it's not too much to ask, would you mind checking to see if there's a
bathroom facility somewhere?"

Scully smiled evilly.  "Whatever for?" she teased.

Mulder blushed and looked somewhat annoyed.  "What do you think?"

"I'll go see," Scully said, hoping that there was a toilet somewhere inside
the cabin and that they wouldn't have to rely on an outhouse.  Luckily there
was one between the kitchen and the dining room, and Scully returned to her
partner to lead him there.

"Do you need any help?" Scully teased as she turned on the bathroom light.

"Just close the door on your way out," he said pointedly.

Scully ducked out of the bathroom and, after shutting the door, went over to
the gas fire and tried to figure out how it worked.   As she leaned down to
inspect it, the pain seared through her body and she ended up sitting down on
the couch until she could breathe again.  She was just trying to gather her
strength to get up when she heard a yelp from the bathroom.

"Mulder?!  Are you okay?!" Scully asked, pushing her pain aside and hurrying
to the bathroom door.  Upon hearing Mulder scrabbling to find the door knob,
she opened the door for him.  "What happened?!"

"I saw, Scully!"

"You can see again?!"

"No!  But just for a moment I _saw_!  It was like a flash of light, like when
I saw the cabin."

"But you can't see anything now?" Scully asked, waving her good hand in front
of his eyes.

"No.  But the fact that I saw for a moment is a good sign, isn't it?"

Scully didn't answer.  She was wracking her brains, trying to remember
anything from her medical background that would explain Mulder's temporary
blindness.  Or temporary sight, as the case seemed to be.  Grabbing his hand,
she led him over to the couch, saying, "Mulder, I need to examine you.  I'm
afraid something is terribly wrong with you."

"I thought you came to that conclusion months ago," Mulder teased as Scully
sat him down on the couch.

"Lie back," she instructed, ignoring his remarks.  As he lay back, Scully
examined the gash on his forehead, and then checked his eyes.

"I don't get it," she said frustratedly, sitting down next to Mulder.  "Your
head wound appears minor, and you don't even have a concussion.  So what could
be causing the blindness?"

Mulder didn't have an answer for this.  For once, he didn't even have any
paranormal theories to bounce off of her.  He was worried about his
situation, but he was more worried about hers at present.  "How are _you_
doing?" he asked.

"Glad to be sitting down," she said, smiling.  "Even if it is freezing in
here."

"Does there appear to be any heat source?" Mulder asked.

"Yes, a gas fire, though I don't know how it works."

"Where is it?" Mulder asked, blindly glancing around.

"Why?  Do you know how gas fires work?" Scully asked, somewhat cheered.

"No.  But _you_ need to sit for awhile.  Point me in the right direction and
I'll see what I can do."

"Just to your right," Scully replied.  She knew that she should get off of the
chair and help him, but the cushions seemed to have wrapped themselves
comfortingly around her pain, and her eyelids began to droop of their own
accord.

Mulder ran his hands along the side of the fireplace and then down the sides.
He found the gas control and the ignition button and took a deep breath.
Although his medical training was no where near as exhaustive as his
partner's, he knew what a night spent in a freezing cold room could do to her
in her current state.  "If I lose my eyebrows over this, Agent Scully," he
said, "I'm going to be deeply unimpressed."

He turned the gas control and heard the hissing sound of the fuel coming from
the jets.  _So far, so good_ he thought.  He pressed the ignition button.  For
a terrifying moment, there was no sound, but then the lighter sparked and the
gas caught alight.  Mulder sat back on his haunches and enjoyed the feel of
the warmth for a moment before turning back to where his partner lay.

"Scully?" he called.

She murmured something sleepily in reply, and he gingerly felt his way over to
the couch.  One of his hands caught the material of her coat and he tugged on
it gently.  "Mmmmm?" Scully said.

Mulder smiled.  "It sounds like you're half asleep already," he said.
"Why don't you lie down and rest?"

He heard her shift around on the couch and the rustle of material as she
arranged her coat to cover herself.  She gave a little hiss of pain as she
settled on her broken rib, then her breathing smoothed out.

Mulder cast about, feeling with his hands for something that he could lie on.
The heat from the fire had begun to permeate the room, throwing off the harsh
chill of the night outside.  He could hear the wind shrieking around the house
even over the muted roar of the fire, and he imagined the snow piling up
outside.

One of his hands brushed against an easy chair and he pulled himself onto it.
Laying his gun on the floor within easy reach, he rested his head back on the
cushions and closed his useless eyes. The darkness was no more complete than
when they had been open. He sighed deeply.  There was nothing more to be done
until Scully awoke, so he forced his mind to let go of their problems and
drift.

****

Scully knew that she was asleep.  This was an undoubted fact: she had felt
herself go, despite the burning pain in her side and wrist. So, she had to be
asleep.

With sleep came dreams: that was to be expected.  She was a doctor, she knew
these things, she told herself with the certainty of sleep-logic.  _I'm
asleep, I'm dreaming_.

Although her eyes were shut, she could sense Mulder across the room; an
unconscious, subliminal accumulation of data from her other senses.  The smell
of the mud and pine needles on his shoes, the sound of his breathing, even the
smell of his aftershave.  A small, quiet smile touched the mouth of her
dreaming self as she imagined his earnest face.  _Mulder_, she thought, and
the word brought with it a host of associations: their shared adventures, his
sometimes infuriating know-it-all smile, how it had felt to hold his hand.
And other things as well...but those she wasn't ready to deal with, not yet,
and she tucked them away again like sleepy children.  One day, she knew, they
would awake for good, and their questions would have to be faced.  But this
was only a dream, after all.  Plenty of time for that later.

Her smile faded as she became aware of another presence in the room.  She had
sought out Mulder with her senses willingly, trustingly.  This new presence,
though, pushed itself upon her with almost rude force.  Where the sounds and
scents of her partner had been soft, undemanding, the stimuli associated with
this other were harsh, plaintive.

Yet, she sensed with her dream-logic that it was not malign.  In place of
Mulder's scent, it presented the smell of shallow earth, the forest. She
seemed to see it before her, although her eyes were firmly closed.  It was
hazy, ragged, hanging before her dream sight as though suspended on a hook.
It seemed to step a little closer, and its proportions clarified into those of
a man, although she could make no sense of its facial features.

The scent of the trees and earth grew stronger, more pungent, yet Scully was
unafraid.  In the same way that she had found Mulder from across the room, she
sensed that the apparition meant her no harm.  And what if it did?  This was,
after all, only a dream, she reminded herself.

The figure stretched out a hand, and Scully flinched.  The hand was pulled
back sharply, almost guiltily.  When it was extended again, she submitted her
dreaming self to its touch.  Its fingertips were cold, but not unpleasant.
She seemed to see a spark jump from its nails into the darkness of her
sleeping mind, illuminating the landscape that lay there.

The figure squatted before her and reached out again, this time to her broken
rib.  Again she felt the spark leap from its hand to her skin, and this time
it was warm; a warmth that slipped easily into her shattered bone, soothing
the pain there.  She sighed as the burning ache that had spiked her even in
sleep was soothed.  When the apparition reached to her wrist, she submitted
willingly.  Again, the spark; and again, the gentle warmth.

Then, as abruptly as the figure had made itself known, it was gone, leaving
just a trace of its earthy smell.

_I'm dreaming_, she thought to herself again.  _Just dreaming_.

****

When she awoke she was too warm, and she shrugged aside her coat.  The fire
was still roaring, and she reached over easily, without thinking, and turned
it down.

And stopped.  She sat up on the couch and tenderly felt her injured side.
There was some soreness there still, and she flinched from her own probing
fingers, but none of the agony that she had expected.  There was still
extensive bruising, and possibly a small fracture, but nothing like the injury
she had felt in the car.  She frowned.  Her wrist, too, was less painful than
she remembered.

A snatch of random thought flickered across her mind: _dreaming?_, bringing
with it the smell of pine and dark earth.  She sought to hold it, to wrest
some meaning from it, but it was already gone into the darkness with a playful
flick of its tail.

Scully frowned and forced herself to get a grip.  Obviously, she had
misdiagnosed herself in the car.  It was understandable: she had been under
considerable stress and in a lot of pain.  She pushed aside for the moment the
memory of how her ribs had sickeningly _moved_ under her hand back at the
scene of the crash, and decided to worry about it when she had more time.

She turned her attention to Mulder.  He was sleeping in the easy chair, his
neck at an awkward angle that Scully knew would be painful when he awoke.  His
coat was in a crumpled pile by his feet -- Scully imagined he'd covered
himself with the coat but then threw it off in his sleep when the fire got too
warm.

Scully leaned over and re-covered Mulder with the makeshift blanket, noticing
that her ribs definitely felt different from when she'd first sat down upon
the couch.  But how long ago had that been?  Scully checked her watch and
noticed that it was almost 1am.  Evidently they'd both needed the sleep after
such a stressful day.  And there was still a long night ahead of them.  She
sat back and closed her eyes.

She had almost drifted off again when she heard Mulder mumbling.  She opened
her eyes and glanced over at her partner.  He was deep in REM sleep, for
Scully could see his eyes moving back and forth beneath his drawn lids.  And
he was mumbling;  "Samantha".

Scully lay still for a moment, trying to decide if she should wake him or not.

But she never had to come to a decision, as Mulder awoke with a start.

He sat up in the chair, his eyes wide open, and Scully could sense his
disorientation.

"It's okay, Mulder," she said soothingly.  "We're in the cabin.  We were in
the car accident.  Remember?"

After a moment his memory recalled the events of the evening and he sat back
in his chair.

"I still can't see anything," Mulder said, as if Scully couldn't tell.  After
a moment he asked quietly, "I was dreaming about her, wasn't I?"

"Yes," Scully said.  "Do you remember the dream?"

Mulder shook his head.  "I never remember them.  But somehow they're always
with me anyway.  It's as if, when I wake up, I feel anew all the grief and
loss, as if she'd only disappeared yesterday."

"Have you talked to anyone about it?"

"You mean besides you?  Who would I talk to?"

"There's staff psychologists, Mulder -- maybe they could--"

"What?!  Tell me that it never happened?!  Or perhaps tell me that my work in
the X-files is only feeding my inability to cope with _what really happened_
and I should seek reassignment in order to help close old wounds....I'm a
trained psychologist, Scully -- I know the routine."

"That doesn't mean that you couldn't use some professional advice," Scully
said snidely, almost hurt by his sudden outburst.

"I'm sorry," Mulder said, realizing how he'd sounded.  "I didn't mean to snap.
I guess I'm just a little on edge, what with all that's happened and not being
able to see.  And having nightmares doesn't help my disposition any."

"I'll say!" Scully said teasingly.

"So what time is it, anyway?  Time to fly the coop and look for someone to
rescue us?  You know, I'm really disappointed in you, Scully."

"What on earth for?"

"Well, I've come to always rely on _you_ to get me out of tight spots!"

"You do tend to have more than your share!" Scully said, laughing.  "And it's
about 1am."

"Damn, we missed it," Mulder said, slapping his hand melodramatically against
his lap.

"What?"

"The witching hour!"

"After all that's happened to us, the last thing we need is witches," Scully
teased.

Mulder suddenly realized he'd been so engrossed in his own worries that he
hadn't inquired about her condition, so he quickly asked, "How are you doing?"

"Much better, strangely enough," Scully said.  "I must've misdiagnosed myself
in the car because now I think my ribs are only bruised."

"Are you sure?"

"I think so.  Most of the shooting pain is gone, although I'm still not in the
best of shape."

"Maybe the sleep did you some good."

"Sleep itself couldn't've done anything.  But..." she trailed off, not knowing
exactly what to say.  Should she tell Mulder about her dream?  After all, it
was _just_ a dream, wasn't it?

"What?" Mulder asked.

Scully considered.  If anyone would have understood about her strange dream,
it would have been Mulder.  But then, he had enough on his mind as things
stood without troubling him further.  She decided to tell him later, once they
had gotten themselves out of their current mess.  "Doesn't matter," she said.
She saw by his face that he wasn't going to let it go that easily, so she pre-
empted him by saying "It looks like the owners aren't going to make it back
tonight.  I guess that we may as well make ourselves comfortable."

Mulder paused for a second before replying, as if considering whether or not
to pursue the thread of their earlier conversation.  Apparently he decided
against it: "Guess so," he said.  "Perhaps they got caught in town by the
storm.  In the meantime, I wonder if there's a telephone in here somewhere?"

Scully stared at him for a moment in surprise, her mouth open.  "You know,"
she said, "I never even thought to look!  God, how stupid!" She snapped her
fingers.  "I think I might have seen one in the kitchen..."  Her voice trailed
off.

Mulder frowned.  "Scully?  What's wrong?"

Scully was silent for a moment.  She clicked her fingers again, this time away
from her body.  Again, she saw what had caused her the pause: Mulder's eyes
had flicked unconsciously towards the motion. "Mulder," she said, "how many
fingers am I holding up?"  She held up her little finger.

"Jeez, Scully, how do I know?  Three?"

Scully frowned.  "Ok," she said, "doesn't matter.  Anyway, I think that
I saw a phone in the hall-".  Mid-sentence, she leant over and
pinched Mulder's earlobe hard between her nails.

He jerked back angrily.  "Hey," he protested, "what the hell was that-"

She cut him off.  "How many fingers?" she barked at him, using her best "I'm-
FBI-so-get-down-on-the-floor" voice.  She held up two fingers.

Without thinking, Mulder replied "Two.  That hurt, Scully!"

His partner was silent.  "What?" he said.

"Could be good news," she replied.  "It seems that your eyes work, but nothing
is getting to your brain.  When I clicked my fingers you looked at them...and
you guessed how many I was holding up as well. But it only seems to work when
you're distracted.  I wonder why?"

She leant forward and peered at his face.  His eyes appeared normal: there
were no blood-lines, no fractures in the iris.  They both pointed straight
ahead.

"Good news or bad news?" Mulder asked.

Much as she would have liked to give him something to calm his fears, Scully
was forced to admit her ignorance.  The fact that the problem seemed to lie
not with his eyes or brain but somewhere in between could either be good or
bad.  Without a reference text, she really couldn't say, and she told him so.

He sighed.  "Oh, well," he said.  "Why don't you go see about that phone."

Scully nodded and got to her feet.  "I'll be back in a second," she said.

She walked stiffly to the hallway.  Damaged ribs aside, sleeping on the couch
had kinked the long muscles in her legs, and the first few steps were painful.
She wondered at how a person could not notice their body, take it totally for
granted until something went wrong with it.  Like her ribs.  Like Mulder's
eyes.  She wondered briefly how he would cope if his sight never came back,
what he would do.

The phone was in the hall as she remembered, and she pushed her gloomy
thoughts aside for the moment.  If the phone was working, there was a good
chance that they could be picked up tonight, despite the storm.

The pane that Mulder had broken on the way in let in both the wind and the
snow, chilling her midriff and making her ribs ache anew. Despite how much
better they had felt after her sleep, she knew that they would be paining her
for some days yet.  Walking out was clearly not an option: injuries aside, she
could see the snow piled almost three feet high outside already, and the storm
showed no sign of abating.

She reached the phone and picked it up, cupping it close to her ear to cup out
the sound of the storm.  A drift of snow swirled in through the empty part of
the door and settled on the carpet.

There was no dial-tone.  Scully sighed, but she wasn't overly surprised: the
lines were probably down.  Even if they had been laid underground, it was
likely that the system would foul up somewhere along the line in a storm of
that severity.  Indeed, the owners of the cabin might have had the line
disconnected if they were away on vacation.

"Any luck?"  Mulder called.

"No," she replied, "no tone.  It's..."

She stopped.  Just for a moment, on the cusp of her hearing, she had thought
she heard something.  _Just the wind_ she thought, _just the wind blowing
around the house_.  She was just about to put the phone down when it came
again.  She strained her ears towards it, her flesh goosepimpling as though
someone had dropped a wet and agile spider down her spine.

The sound was low, almost too low to hear.  It sounded like speech, but the
words were moaned and slurred together, becoming meaningless.  _It's a crossed
line_ she thought.  That was the logical conclusion, yet it didn't sound as
though the voice was having one half of a conversation.  It sounded like it
was trying to make itself heard to someone who could barely-if at all-hear it.

_Someone like me_ she thought, and her scalp tingled.  With a sudden, harsh
gesture, she put the phone back onto the hook and backed up a couple of steps,
as if it were a dangerous animal into whose territory she had strayed.

"Scully, are you ok out there?"  Mulder sounded anxious.

With sudden, shocking clarity, the phone began to ring.  Scully yelped in
surprise, her first response being to knock it from the wall.  _Get a grip,
woman!_ she told herself furiously.  _Get a damn grip!  It's only a phone!_

===========================================================================

From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF:  Last Light -- Part C/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:15:27 GMT
 

Last Light -- Part C

She reached out a hand and lifted the receiver, tentatively holding it to her
ear.  But there was nothing this time; the phone was clearly dead.  She
replaced the receiver, wondering how the phone had rung.  Had the lines been
cut as she answered? she wondered and then realized she was becoming as
paranoid as Mulder.

As she turned around, ready to return to the living room, she saw something
in the doorway.  She jumped back, startled, trying to get her eyes to focus on
the shape in the darkness.

"Who was it?" Mulder asked, suddenly appearing in the doorway and replacing
whatever had been there a moment before.

"What?" Scully asked distractedly, her brain still trying to make some sense
of what had just happened.  "The phone's dead."

"But I heard it ring," Mulder said.

"I don't know why it rung, Mulder!" Scully snapped, unnerved by the entire
situation.  "The phone's dead -- you can listen to it yourself!"

"I believe you," Mulder said, sensing Scully's mood and quickly backing off.
Shivering, he said, "It sure is colder in here than in by the fire."

"It's the draft from the broken window," Scully said absently.

Mulder fumbled his way to the door and strained his eyes, trying to see
something outside.  "What's the weather like out?"

"There's several feet of snow," Scully said, "and it's still snowing.  It
looks like we're stuck here, at least for awhile."

"Then we might as well get some more sleep," Mulder said, hoping Scully's mood
might be better in the morning.  Holding out his hand to her, he asked, "Do
you mind leading me back to the easy chair?  I crashed into something on my
way in here and I'll have a killer bruise from it on my thigh by morning, so
I'd rather not repeat that mistake."

"C'mon," Scully said, leading him back to the living room, to the warm fire and
the inviting comfort of sleep.

*****

When Mulder awoke, he sensed that it was light out, although his sight had
still not returned.  However, he could somehow tell, through the blindness,
that the day had come, the way he often could through his closed eyelids in
the morning.

"Scully?" he asked quietly.

"Mmmmmm?" Scully answered groggily.

"Is it morning yet?"

After a pause, Scully answered, "Mmmm-Hmmmmm."

"Then shouldn't we be getting up and seeing if we can find a way out of here?"
When there was no answer he asked again, "Scully?"

As he listened to his partner's slow, steady breathing, he realized that she
had returned to sleep. Although he felt too awake to do the same, he decided
not to bother her again and instead lay there quietly thinking about their
situation.

He thought about the phone call and suddenly wondered about Scully's
behaviour.  The way she had snapped at him had seemed so out of character, as
if she were truly upset about something.

Mulder smiled at himself -- anyone listening in on his thoughts would think he
was insane, he realized.  After all, Scully had been badly injured in a car
accident and now was stranded in a blizzard in a cabin without a working
phone; she had every right to be upset.  But Mulder had worked with her long
enough to know that little inconveniences like this weren't enough to unnerve
her.  So why had she acted so strange?

What if it's my eyes? Mulder thought.  What if she knows something terrible
about my condition and is afraid to tell me?  But Scully was a blunt person,
Mulder realized, especially with him.  She wouldn't be able to keep something
like that from him, even if she wanted to.  She would've told him straight out
if she thought his blindness was really serious.

The same way Samantha would've.

Mulder suddenly realized how much Scully reminded him of Samantha.  He
wondered if that was part of why he cared for her so.  Of course, the
similarities weren't exact -- after all, Samantha was only eight, at least in
Mulder's mind, and Scully was a grown woman, a very attractive grown woman in
fact.  But their personalities were much the same:  their bluntness, their
infuriating way of pointing out his mistakes, their stubbornness, their cries
for help.

Mulder stopped mid-thought and did a mental rewind.  Of course, Samantha's
cries seemed always with him.  That was why he always flinched when people
called him "Fox", for he always heard Samantha's voice calling it.

But Scully had cried for help, too, that night on his answering machine.  He
had never told anyone, but he had saved that tape and replayed the message
over and over whilst Scully was missing, hoping to find some clue to her
whereabouts.  And once she'd returned, he couldn't bear to tape over it and
had hidden it instead in a box of old tapes.

Yet, Scully's cries were for Mulder, not Fox.  And yet Scully was the person
he'd been the closest to since Samantha.  She deserved to call him Fox as
well.

"Scully?" he asked quietly, though strongly enough to wake her.

"Yeah, Mulder," she asked groggily.

"You can call me Fox," he said.

There was a pause, and he wondered if she'd returned to sleep.  But then her
voice began, "But I thought--"

Mulder cut her off.  "I know what I said before.  But I..." he trailed off,
wondering what exactly he should say.  After a moment, he merely said,
"Samantha used to call me Fox."

Mulder could hear Scully sitting up on the couch, and he was glad that she was
truly awake now.  But her next question surprised him.

"What's your middle name?"

"My middle name?"

"Yeah.  Surely your parents didn't saddle you with a first name like Fox
without giving you some sort of middle name."

"But why do you want to know it?" he asked, almost embarrassed.

"So that you'll know when you're in trouble," Scully teased.  "My father
always called me 'Dana Katherine' when I was in trouble."

Mulder smiled.  "I'll have to remember that.  And it's Theodore."

"Fox Theodore Mulder," Scully said out-loud, as if trying it on for size.  "If
you don't mind me asking, what on earth possessed your parents to name you
Fox?"

Mulder shrugged.  "Beats me.  When I was real little, I used to like it
because it made me feel special.  But then when I started growing up and
getting teased, I realized that being 'special' wasn't necessarily a
blessing.  'Fox the fox' still rings in my ears to this day!"

"It could've been worse," Scully said.  "You could have been extremely
unattractive."

"Oh, but I was!" Mulder said.  "In junior high especially.  I hit my growth
spurt really early, right around age 12, so I was really skinny and awkward
for several years.  And Samantha was always the first to point out how funny I
looked."

"It's too bad she can't see you now," Scully said.  "I think she'd be
impressed at how you turned out."

Mulder grinned.  "Me?  Nahhh," he replied.  "Stop it or I'll blush."

Scully laughed, feeling the tension that had gathered in her after the
incident with the phone dissipate.  "Hey," she said, "I think that the snow's
stopped."

She went to a window and peered out.  The storm seemed to have abated during
the night, leaving the snow to gleam dully in the weak morning light.  She saw
that the tree-line began some ten yards or so from the cabin.

"How thick is it?"  Mulder asked.

"A good few feet."  Scully peered up at the sky and saw that, although the
snow might have stopped, clouds were still massing overhead.  "You know," she
said, "I might be able to walk to the car.  I could flag down a snow plough."

"I wouldn't recommend it," Mulder replied.  "It might snow again, you could
get lost.  The ploughs might not even be out yet.  It's not a good gamble,
Scully.  I think-"

Scully turned.  "What?"

"I saw it again!  There was kind of a flash of light, and I saw...I think
it was you, by the window, and..."

Scully moved toward him.  "That's good," she said, "maybe it means that..."
She stopped.  Mulder had ceased speaking and was staring at her with an
intense expression on his face.  _No_, she corrected herself _not at me,
through me.  He's blind_.

Such was the intensity of his gaze that she found herself turning with it,
anxious to see what had caught his attention so profoundly.  She looked out of
the window into the tree-line, and there she saw a flash of movement.  It was
so quick and so brief that she would have dismissed it as snow falling from
a branch were it not for the fact that Mulder spoke:

"Someone's out there."

Scully hesitated for a second.  Mulder was blind.  Yet, he was apparently
seeing in flashes, especially when distracted.  "I'll go check it out," she
said.

Moving as fast as her ribs would allow her, she went to the front door, opened
it and jogged painfully around to the back of the house.  Her breath steamed
in the cold air, and the frost jumped nimbly down her shirt, raising her flesh
into goosepimples.  "Hello?" she called.  "Is anyone there?"

There was no reply, and yet she sensed that she was being watched.  She felt
the gaze as though it were a weight on her forehead, pressing and marking her
skin.  She repeated her call, and again there was no answer.  She began to
shiver in earnest.  After calling once more, she returned to the cabin, still
feeling as though the eyes of an unseen observer were upon her.

"There was no-one there," she told Mulder.  "Or if there was, they weren't
answering."

Mulder was sat on the couch, rubbing his eyes.  "Perhaps it was a neighbour,"
he said.  "They mightn't have answered because they didn't recognise you.
Perhaps they thought you were a burgler?"

Scully shook her head.  "Why would a burglar advertise their presence?  How
are your eyes now?"

Mulder shrugged.  "I'm as blind as a bat," he said.  "There was just that
flash, and then nothing again.  It seems that it's getting better, though?"

His partner heard the unspoked plea for reassurance in his voice, and answered
as best she could: "It seems...hopeful," she said, knowing that it would sound
like cold comfort.  "I could walk to the next cabin..."

Mulder shook his head.  "In which direction?  How far?  And that's always
assuming that it was a neighbour and not an animal or something.  I think
we're here for the duration, Agent Scully."

Scully sighed.  Mulder's arguments made sense.  Although her ribs felt so much
better than they had the night before, she doubted that she would be up to an
arduous trek across snow-bound woodland.  Without any ready means of summoning
help and with the clouds massing overhead again, it did indeed look as though
they were stuck until the weather improved.  "I hate the damn countryside,"
she murmured.

Mulder laughed.  "Ah, Scully, it ain't that bad.  Besides, we could use a day
or two off work."

Scully sighed.  "I suppose so.  I just hope Skinner doesn't rake us over the
coals for this one."

"How can he -- it's not OUR fault that someone ran in front of me on the
road."

"Maybe THAT'S who was outside," Scully said excitedly.

"But why show up now?"

Scully shrugged.  "It was just an idea."

"I have a better idea."

"What?"

"Breakfast.  I'm starved."

"I am, too.  I just hope there's some sort of food.  I'll go check out the
kitchen situation."  Scully went into the kitchen and opened the cabinets.
After searching for awhile, she returned to Mulder in the living room.  "Well,
the good news is that we won't starve.  The bad news is, I hope you like soup
for breakfast because that's all there is."

Mulder groaned.  "And I was hoping for some French toast!  How much soup is
there -- should we ration it?"

Scully shook her head and then realized that Mulder couldn't see her.  "No.
One whole cabinet is full of cans -- it looks like someone stocked up in case
of an emergency."

"I'd say this constitutes an emergency, wouldn't you?"

"Yep," Scully said.  "So what would you like for breakfast -- tomato, cream of
broccoli, split pea, bean with bacon, chicken noodle, or chile?"

Mulder smacked his lips together a few times.  "I think tomato tastes the most
like a breakfast soup, don't you?"

"I guess," Scully said, returning to the kitchen.

Mulder heard her opening various drawers and cabinets, and after a minute he
heard her mutter, "Damn!"

"What?" Mulder hollered out to her.

"There's bowls, spoons, glasses, and pans, but no can opener."

Mulder laughed.  "Just our luck -- we're stranded at a cabin owned by macho
men who use their teeth to open cans."

"What should we do?" Scully asked, walking into the living room.

"It seems we have two options:  one, we could try using our teeth."

Scully rolled her eyes.  "Or?" she prompted.

"Or two, we could use the can opener on my pocket knife," Mulder said, digging
his Swiss Army knife out of his pocket and throwing it in Scully's general
direction.

"Nice aim," Scully said sarcastically as she walked halfway across the room to
retrieve the knife from the floor.  "I'll go start the soup, then."

About ten minutes later Scully brought the two bowls of hot soup out to the
living room and then returned to the kitchen to get glasses of water for them
to drink.  "You know, it certainly is lucky that whoever owns this place kept
the water and gas turned on."

"Maybe it means they're planning on returning soon."

"If so, I hope they don't suspect that we're burglars.  I can just imagine
explaining our arrest record to Skinner."

Mulder laughed.  "You shouldn't be so hard on Skinner.  He's really not so
bad."

"As an ally, yes.  But as a boss, no."

"It's not his fault that he has to answer to people above him.  And admit it,
Scully -- if you had me working for you, wouldn't you get frustrated
occasionally?"

"Is this a trick question?" Scully teased.

Mulder pretended to be wounded.  "I'm not THAT bad, am I?"

"Mulder, you're always ditching me, you're always disobeying orders, and
you're always putting your life in unnecessary danger."

"Why Agent Scully, I didn't know you cared," Mulder teased.

"I'm serious, Mulder.  You get beat up more than any agent I know.  I can't
count the times I've had to save your ass because you've let someone get the
better of you.  You've got to start working on your self-defense skills."

"Well, it's not like I've ever had to save YOUR ass," Mulder said, slightly
offended.  "What about Tooms, for instance?"

"I didn't exactly expect to have someone crawl out of my heating vent," Scully
said defensively.  "And at least I don't have a habit of going into dark
places alone, like someone I could name."

"I beg to differ -- what exactly do you call what you did following Luther
Boggs's _channeling_?  If I remember correctly, you went into that warehouse
alone without telling me after I'd WARNED you that Boggs was a fake."

"My father had just died, Mulder -- I don't think I should be held responsible
for anything stupid I did then."

"But you could've been killed in there."

"As could you, in cases too numerous to mention!  But I think we should just
drop the subject, before we start saying things we'll regret.  Especially if
we're going to be stuck with each other for awhile, which it looks like we
are."

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From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF:  Last Light -- Part D/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:21:47 GMT
 

Last Light -- Part D

Mulder nodded.  "I'm sorry.  I guess tomato soup for breakfast doesn't
exactly put me in the best mood."

"Apology accepted."  Scully took the emptied bowl from her partner and went
into the kitchen.  She placed both bowls in the sink.  There was a window
above the draining board, and she gazed out of it for a moment.  The trees had
been cut back away from the house, leaving a space that she presumed was a
garden.  There was a black refuse sack sitting against a metal bin.  She noted
that the bin was locked:  probably to stop animals digging around for scraps.

She went back into the dining room.  Mulder was sitting cross-legged on the
couch, his shoes off.  His jacket was slung over the arm along with his tie.
He had relit the fire.  His eyes were closed.

"What are you doing?" Scully asked.

He smiled.  "Listening," he said.  "I figure that I may as well make the most
of the senses I have left.  How's the weather?"

"Clouds still massing.  Looks like we're here for another night at least."
Scully moved closer to the fire and held out her hands.  Compared to the
warmth of the dining room, the kitchen had been chilly.  She looked around the
room, her mind idling in neutral, listening to Mulder's breathing and the hiss
of the fire.

Something jolted Scully's mind.  She fished for it, and it came back to her.
There were no family photos in the room:  no portraits, no snapshots.  There
were no ornaments either, she noticed.  no personal touches.  And yet, it was
obvious that someone had recently been in the cabin:  the food, the fact that
the utilities were still connected.  She shared her thoughts with Mulder.

"Maybe they just went back to their house?" he suggested.  "We could have
missed them by days, maybe even just hours."  He opened his eyes.  "There's a
tap dripping upstairs."

Scully smiled and laughed.  "Are you kidding?" she said.

"Scout's honor."

"And I suppose that you want me to go up there all on my own and stop it,
despite what you said about going into strange places on my own?"

Mulder smiled.  "I had a hypocrisy clause written into my contract," he said.

Scully sighed.  "What am I, a plumber?"  She got up from the chair that she
had been sitting in and went to the hall.  The temperature dropped
immediately, making her flesh goosepimple and her sore ribs ache.  She started
up the stairs.

The cold air made her feel uneasy.  Surely it couldn't be this cold, even with
the broken window?  She reached the landing and looked around.  There were
three doors: two bedrooms and a bathroom, she presumed.  Her breath began to
steam.

"Scully?"  She jumped.  Mulder's voice came from the bottom of the stairs.
"Are you OK?"

_Am I?_  Her mind echoed.  _I'm jumping at shadows, for heaven's sake._  Her
fear and sense of unease turned to anger.  "Dammit, Mulder, you scared me!"
she snapped.  "I can turn off a tap without your help, thank you!"

"Pardon me, I'm sure."  Scully heard the anger creeping into her partner's
voice and forced herself to relax.  She took a deep breath and opened the
first door.  Behind her, she heard Mulder climbing the stairs slowly,
carefully.

The door opened into a double bedroom.  She closed it again, not wanting to
pry.  Behind her, Mulder reached the landing.  She turned and saw him there,
standing uncertainly.  He rested a hand on the wall.

She opened the second door and found the bathroom.  Directly ahead of her was
the sink, the tap dripping a slow but continuous trickle of water.  There was
a bath to her right.  A medicine cabinet was hung over the sink, the doors
mirrored.  _Jeez, I look a mess,_ Scully thought.

The air in the bathroom was even colder than that in the hallways.  Her hand
stuck to the tap when she turned it off, the cold metal seeming to bite into
her skin.  She heard Mulder follow her into the doorway.  She ran her hands
through her hair and peered into her reflection's eyes.  "Any other odd jobs
around the house?" she asked, careful to tone her voice lightly.

Mulder heard the apology in her voice and considered.  "Well, the roof could
do with a few new tiles," he said.  "And..."  He paused.

Scully turned from the mirror.  "Mulder?" she said.  She saw that he was
staring at a point on the wall just to the right of the door.

"I can see some light," he said.  "Just a little, but I can see!"

Scully smiled despite the seriousness of the situation.  There was an almost
child-like delight in his voice.  She followed his gaze down.  The smile
faded, and her skin pimpled again, but not this time from the cold.  There, on
the wall, directly under her partner's gaze, was a spot of blood.

"Oh my God," Scully muttered under her breath as she moved over to inspect it
closer.

"What is it?" Mulder asked.

"There's blood on the wall," Scully said.

"Where?"

"Where?!  Right where you were looking!"

Mulder looked shocked.  "You're kidding!" he said, knowing that she wasn't.

Scully carefully studied the evidence in front of her as if it were a routine
crime scene.  She noticed that an attempt had been made to clean up the blood,
for the area on the wall around the dark spot had a brownish-pink tinge to it.
But the fact that there was still a dark spot at all indicated that someone
had evidently lost a lot of blood against this wall.  A shiver went down
Scully's spine.  "I've the feeling that someone died in this room," Scully
said.  "It's too bad we didn't bring the camera with us.  I'd like to document
the scene."

"It's not going anywhere, and neither are we, for that matter," Mulder said.
"When we get out of here, we can take pictures then."

Scully sighed.  Mulder was right -- they were stuck here, so there was nothing
to be gained from panicking now.  But the whole thing unnerved her.  "Let's go
back downstairs," Scully said.  "I'm freezing."

Mulder reached out his hand to Scully, who took it and started to lead him
back downstairs.

"You weren't kidding!" Mulder said.

"About what?"

"You ARE freezing!  Your hand feels like ice.  How're your ribs doing?"

"They ache, but they definitely aren't broken," she said matter-of-factly.  "I
wouldn't be able to move around this much if they were."  Again her mind
flashed to her initial diagnosis back at the car and the strange dream she'd
had, but she wasn't in the mood right now to share these thoughts with Mulder.
The stairs had tired her more than she was willing to admit, and she knew that
even ribs that were merely bruised weren't going to be pleasant to live with
for the next few days if she insisted on moving around so much.

Once they got back to the warmth of the fire, Mulder asked, "So how fresh was
it?"

"What?" Scully asked, confused.

"The blood upstairs," Mulder said.

"Oh.  I'm not really sure.  It wasn't BRAND new -- the clotting and coloring
of it seemed to indicate it was at least a few days old, though I couldn't
definitely give any sort of time scale beyond that."

After a moment, Mulder asked, "Was it really exactly where I was looking?"

"Yes.  Didn't you see it?"

"No.  I just saw a brief flash of light like the other ones I've seen.  Like
the one when I saw the cabin!"

Scully laughed.  She recognized that tone in his voice.  "So what's your
theory, Mulder?"

"Maybe I'm only seeing things I'm SUPPOSED to see," he said excitedly.
"Perhaps I'm being shown these things for a reason."

"_Perhaps_ you hit your head just a little too hard against the steering
wheel," Scully teased.  "Besides, how could anything manipulate your injury in
that way?"

"But what if me injury, my blindness, wasn't caused by the accident?"

"Then what?" I refuse to believe _aliens_ are controlling your blindness."

"Then how about a ghost?  If someone WAS killed upstairs in the bathroom, then
maybe his ghost is manipulating me in some way."

Scully looked at her partner's earnest look and grinned.  His unique outlook
on life would never cease to amaze her.  "Well, Mulder, I'll let you work on
that theory a little more."

"And what'll you do?"

"I'm going to take a nap.  My ribs are starting to ache more, and sleep is
probably just what they need."

*****

Mulder sighed.  He was bored.  And his heightened senses were really starting
to get annoying.  After Scully had drifted off to sleep on the couch, he had
tried to get some shut-eye himself.  Unfortunately, he could hear the clock on
the wall endlessly ticking away, and its insistent noise kept him from
drifting off.

So he sat in the easy chair and let his mind wander.  He suddenly realized
that if anything were to happen right now, he'd be powerless to stop it.  He'd
never noticed before how much he really did rely on his eyesight.  If his
blindness weren't a temporary thing, he would definitely have to resign his
post with the Bureau.  And then what would he do?  He had no answer to that
question, and the very thought of it scared him.

He decided to try to think of something more cheerful.  He could still hear
the clock ticking away, and he wondered what time it was.  He was starting to
get hungry and hoped that they could have lunch soon, even if it only
consisted of more soup.

In addition to the clock, he could hear the sound of the wind howling around
the house.  And the fire hissing in the fireplace.  And Scully's breathing.
He concentrated on her slow, even breaths and tried to imagine her small
sleeping form on the couch.  She must look very vulnerable right now, he
thought.  He remembered reading in a psychology text somewhere that people
were often kind to those asleep because sleep was such a vulnerable state,
being so close to death.  Poets through the ages had discussed the
similarities between sleep and death.  But Mulder knew there was a world of
difference, for now Scully merely slept, but only a few months ago she had
really been on the verge of death.

Mulder remembered sitting by her bedside in the hospital, watching the various
machines report her vital signs and wondering if she was going to live.  He
had sworn then and there that he'd never put her life in such jeopardy again.
Of course, she had had something to say about that decision!  Once back at
work, she had insisted that he not treat her with kid gloves.  But he still
worried about her incessantly, and he wondered what his life would be like
without her in it.

Mulder's stomach growled, and he decided that it was definitely time for
lunch, whether Scully was awake or not.  He stood up and slowly made his way
towards the kitchen.  He was trying to be quiet, so as not to wake up his
sleeping partner, but he couldn't help exclaiming "Shit!" when he stubbed his
toe hard against the doorframe.  And trying to find things in an unfamiliar
kitchen was a noisy business.  He'd just located the cans when he heard
Scully's voice holler worriedly, "Mulder?!"

"I'm fixing us some lunch," he hollered back, not knowing that Scully was
already by his side.

Scully sighed with relief upon seeing Mulder, and then she began to laugh when
she saw the can he was holding.  "I think _I_ better do the cooking," Scully
said, "unless you _really_ want to eat enchilada sauce."

"Oops," Mulder said as Scully took the can from his hand.  "Perhaps you're
right, then.  So, how are you feeling?"

"More tired than when I laid down," Scully confessed as she grabbed a can of
soup and began opening it.  "Did you get any sleep?"

"No.  The damn clock was too loud."

"Clock?" Scully asked, not even having noticed there was one.

"Yes.  Tick...tick...tick...I was beginning to think that hearing the Beach
Boys would be a blessing!"

"I'm not going to dignify that comment with a reply," Scully said as she
switched on the stove.  The kitchen, though not as cold as the upstairs rooms,
was still chilly.  She held her hand out over the ring, hoping that the heat
would warm her fingers and soothe the nagging ache in her wrist.  She yawned.

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From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF:  Last Light -- Part E/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:27:28 GMT
 

Last Light -- Part E

Mulder gingerly reached out and touched the worktop.  He leaned against it and
folded his arms.  "So what's your theory on what's happening?" he asked.

Scully, who had been watching bubbles rise in the heating soup, jumped a
little at the sound of his voice.  She sighed.  "We know that your sight seems
to return when you're distracted," she said, "so maybe you were distracted
at the time?"  She poured the soup into bowls.

"Feasible, I guess."  Mulder set his bowl on the counter.  Scully put a spoon
in his hand and he started to eat.  Suddenly, his head jerked upwards.

Startled, Scully almost dropped her bowl.  "What?" she said.

"I heard something upstairs...in one of the rooms, I think."

Scully listened too.  At first she was convinced that Mulder was imagining it.
She realised she had been holding her breath, and was about to let it go and
scold him when she heard it too:  a muffled thump.  She put her soup down and
darted from the kitchen.  Her ribs groaned under the stress.

She went to the dining room and pulled her gun from its holster.  She heard
Mulder curse behind her as he stumbled over something.  There was another
thump from upstairs, and then a crash that she would have heard even if she
weren't listening for it.

"Scully!  Wait up, dammit!" Mulder hissed.

She shushed him and pushed past him up the stairs.  She cat-footed up two or
three, then paused and listened, holding her breath, her back pressed against
the cold wall.  Something thumped against carpet above her head.  The closer
of the two bedrooms, she decided.  She slipped the safety catch off of her
gun.  Mulder paused at the bottom of the stairs, his head cocked in a
listening posture.

Scully tip-toed up the last few stairs.  She had closed the door to the
bedroom on her last visit, and she placed her hand on the handle and listened
again, putting her back to the wall beside the frame.  The room was silent for
moment, and then the noise started again:  pause, thump, pause, thump.  She
tried to imagine what would make a noise like that and came up blank.  She
took a breath.

She opened the door and winced as a shooting pain danced up her wrist and
buried itself in her armpit.  She peered around the doorway, gun hand
extended.  The room seemed to be empty, and her challenge died on her lips.
She began to relax, thinking that she'd picked the wrong room.

_Thump._

Her heart jumped into her throat and she lept back defensively, her gun
levelled.  Through the doorway she could see a double bed, a night table, and
a wardrobe set flush against the wall.  Part of the room was hidden from her
by the door, but she had seen no one there when she took her first look.  She
stepped warily into the room.

There was no-one there.  She put her back to the wall and began to work her
way along the wall counterclockwise, towards the wardrobe.  As she cleared the
door, she saw that a window on the opposite wall had been smashed, leaving
glass scattered across the carpet.  She reached the wardrobe and began to
slide along it.

_Thump._

Scully started and scolded herself for being so skittish.  She resumed her
movement.  Hidden behind the door was a make-up table with an ornate vanity
mirror set above it.  There was no evidence that the table had been used
recently:  no toiletries, no photos or ornaments.

_Thump._

Scully frowned, her gun lowering.  There was patently no one in the room
except for herself.  There was not enough space under the bed to fit a mouse,
much less an assailant.  She leaned forward and peered under the table.

Trapped beneath was a small bird, apparently confused at its inability to
escape.  It would hop forward a few steps, spread its wings, and then knock
into the underside of the table.

_Thump._

Scully smiled, the tension draining out of her.  With the danger gone, her
ribs and wrist set up a clamour of indignant pain.  She sat down on the bed
and held her side with her good hand, breathing shallowly.  She called for
Mulder, watching the bird flex its wings slowly, as if pondering whether to
make another attempt.  She pushed the safety catch back on the gun.

Mulder appeared at the door.  "What was it?" he asked.

Scully explained, and he smiled.  "I'm glad you find it so amusing!" she
snapped.  Her anger was only a cover, though, and she knew it.  She, too, was
immensely relieved.

"How did it get in?" Mulder asked, leaning on the wardrobe.

"It must have flown into the window and broke it, I guess," Scully replied.
Now that the adrenaline was wearing off, she had begun to feel the cold
through her suit shirt.  She wrapped her arms gently around her ribs and
shivered.

Mulder was frowning.  "Surely if it had hit the window with enough force to
break it, it wouldn't be in any shape to get up again, would it?"

Scully paused.  "You're right..."  She got up and crossed to the window,
mindful of the broken glass on the floor.  The frame was about two feet by
four.  A few shards of glass clung to the wood, but most was scattered in an
arc before her on the carpet.  The wind sighed in through the gap and chilled
her skin.  Even if the bird _had_ broken the window, there was no way that it
would have knocked all of the glass out.

Scully inched forward and peered out.  Below the window there was a lip, and
beside that, a drainpipe.  _A very STURDY drainpipe_, the back of her mind
chipped in.  She looked at the frame.  There, on the inside, just where
someone would have put their hand to drag themselves in, was a fingerprint
printed in engine grease.

Scully felt a chill run down her spine, as if an ice cube were thawing on the
nape of her neck.  "Mulder?" she said.  He looked up.

"Mulder, I don't think that we're the first people to break into this house,"
she said.

"What?!" Mulder asked.

"There's a fingerprint right inside the window, and a drainpipe outside.  I
think someone crawled up here and broke in."  Scully shivered as she spoke,
not sure if it was the draft or her words that caused the chill.  She looked
out the window, searching for clues about the intruders but not being able to
see much for all the snow on the ground.

"Well, they're not here now," Mulder said.  "We would've heard them by now if
they were."

"They could be hiding in the other bedroom," Scully offered.  "I should go
double-check."  She headed for the door and then heard a thump behind her
again.  "Oh, what should we do with the bird, Mulder?"

"It would make a nice change from soup."

Scully laughed and leaned down to get a better look at the bird.  She reached
ger hands under the table to try to grab it, but the bird was too scared and
flapped wildly, making it impossible for Scully to grab hold.  So she decided
to use the bird's fear to her advantage by moving both hands in from one side.
The frightened bird backed away from her hands, still trying at intervals to
fly, and soon it had backed free from the table.  It flew chaotically around
the room for a few minutes and then finally found the window and hurried out.

"Hitchcock would've _loved_ this," Scully muttered.  "I guess I'll go check
the second bedroom."

Mulder nodded and followed her down the hall.  He wasn't much of a back-up,
but he still felt more sure being there for her, even if he was blind.  Scully
approached the second door, gun held at the ready.  Her injured wrist was
starting to scream in pain from the heaviness of the gun, and Scully could
feel her ribs complaining as well.  She opened the door, quickly surveyed that
no one was there, and closed it again.

"Anything?" Mulder asked.

"Nothing," Scully said, sighing with relief.  "But what if they come back?  If
they were responsible for the blood in the bathroom, they might not look too
kindly on two FBI agents holed up with the evidence."

Mulder shrugged.  "We'll just have to cross that bridge when we come to it."

"Yeah, bridge of troubled water," Scully mumbled.

Mulder laughed.  "If I'd've known that Paul and Art were writing the
soundtrack for this adventure, I wish they could've chosen "Feelin' Groovy'
instead."

Scully nodded and led the two of them downstairs.  Whilst in the hall she
decided to check the phone again on the off-chance that it was working now,
but it was still dead.  Now, Scully knew, there was nothing to do but wait;
just for what exactly was anyone's guess!

*****

Mulder was counting the minutes until dinner.  Not that he was particularly
hungry.  But he wanted Scully to be busy.  She'd spent the rest of the
afternoon huddled by the fire, analysing and reanalysing everything that had
happened to them and trying to come up with some coherent theory.  But none of
the evidence made any sense, and even's Mulder's theories couldn't explain
everything.  Mulder wished that Scully would find a stray novel lying about
and read aloud, but he knew better than to suggest it in the mood she was in.

"...But why break-in to a house and then kill someone?" Scully wondered aloud.
"Unless, of course, it was the owner of the cabin that was killed.  But then
surely they couldn't have taken the owner by surprise if they were climbing up
drainpipes and breaking windows.  And what about--"

"What time is it?" Mulder interrupted.

"Huh?"

"Time?"

"Oh," Scully said, glancing down at her watch.  "About 6:30ish."

"Do you think that's too early for dinner?" he asked hopefully.

Scully sighed frustratedly.  "I'll go make it."  She stood up, moaning from
the pain in her ribs.  She knew she needed to stop moving around so much, but
she didn't have much choice.

"What kind do you want tonight?" Scully asked as she walked towards the
kitchen.

"How about chile?"

Mulder could hear her working away in the kitchen, but she seemed to be making
far more noise than was necessary for making soup.  Pretty soon she emerged in
the living room triumphantly, announcing, "Ta-da!  I've found it!"

"What?"

"Our salvation," Scully explained, walking over to him.  "A bottle of
whiskey!"

"Why Agent Scully!  I never knew!"

Scully laughed and handed him a glass.

"Are you sure this is wise?" Mulder asked.  "I mean, what if the bad guys come
back?  Shouldn't we be in complete charge of our senses?"

"Well, let's see," Scully said.  "You're blind, and probably couldn't even
shoot the side of a barn in your condition.  And my ribs and wrist are hurting
so badly that I can hardly see straight anyway.  I think whiskey is just what
we need."

Mulder felt bad.  He'd had no idea that she was in any real pain, since she
hadn't mentioned it for so long.  But she had spent all afternoon worrying
about what they'd discovered upstairs, and he remembered her saying earlier
that worrying kept her mind off the pain.  He should've realised that all the
running around and gun-waving she'd done today would aggravate the injuries,
and he felt guilty for not asking her about it.

Scully soon brought out the two bowls of chile and Mulder took a bite.

"What?  No cheese and onions?" Mulder teased.

"Sorry.  No bird steaks either."

Mulder grinned and took a sip of his whiskey, causing Scully to laugh.

"What?!" he asked defensively.

"Your face," she said, as if this were some sort of explanation.

"You find my face laughable?  Well, I'm glad I could amuse you."

"No, I mean the face you made when you tasted the whiskey.  You looked like a
ten-year-old boy first tasting alcohol."

"Well, I haven't had anything stronger than New Year's champagne for several
years -- I'm just not used to it."

Scully laughed.  She could feel the alcohol slipping into her bones with a
comfortable, numbing warmth.  She heard the wind begin to pick up outside.
She glanced at the window and saw the snow begin to fall again.  The smile
faded from her lips and she sighed.

Mulder placed his bowl carefully on the floor and leaned back in the armchair.
"Are you OK?" he asked.

Scully, who was sitting upon the floor, inched closer to the fire.  She took
another sip of her drink and felt her head begin to buzz gently.  She
cautioned herself to be careful.  Despite what she had said to Mulder, she
didn't think that getting too drunk would be a good idea.  "I'd kill for a
shower and a change of clothes," she replied.  "And I think that I'd commit
actual bodily harm for a backrub."

Mulder smiled.  "'Tis your lucky day, my dear," he pronounced grandly.
"You happen to be in the presence of the single finest backrub virtuoso in the
Northern hemisphere.  At your service."

Scully smiled.  "And so modest.  Why only the Northern hemisphere?" she
enquired.  She meant it as a joke, but she also wanted a little time to
consider...with the alcohol they'd both taken in, was this a good idea?  What
if it led...somewhere else?

"There's a little Zen Buddhist guy on a remote island who's better than me.
He taught me everything I know and then swore me to secrecy.  By the way,
there was this Zen Buddhist in New York, and he went up to a hot dog stand and
said--"

Scully laughed.  "He said, 'Make me one with everything.'"  She interrupted.
"Mulder, that joke is _old_.  And I think you've had enough to drink already."
She watched him as she spoke, trying to judge...what?  His intentions?  _Dana
Katherine_, she scolded herself, _what exactly do you think he's going to do?_
She digested that thought for a second, and then another followed it:  _What
do you WANT him to do?_

She pushed both thoughts aside.  The only question she needed to ask herself
really was, _do you trust him?_  And there was only one answer to that.  She
shifted herself across so she was sitting in front of Mulder's chair, her back
resting on his legs.  "I'd hate to see all that training go to waste," she
said.

Mulder laughed and began to knead her shoulders gently.  Scully sighed, the
tension easing its way out of her body.  She rested her head on his knees.
"Mulder," she said, "if you could sum up your view of the world in one
sentence, what would it be?"

"You know, that Zen guy warned me about this," Mulder replied.

"About what?"

"People getting philosophical when I rub their backs.  And I don't
know...why?  What brought that on?"

Scully shrugged, gazing into the fire.  The sight of the flames was almost
hypnotic.  "I don't know...I guess that I was just thinking about proverbs,
things like that."

Mulder transferred his attentions to her lower back.  The unfamiliar alcohol
he'd taken in buzzed gently in his head.  For the moment, he was glad he was
blind:  at least that way he didn't have to see what he was touching...not
that his imagination wasn't doing a fine job of filling in the blanks.  "OK
then, oh wise one," he said, "what would your one-sentence guide to life be?"

Scully supported her weight awkwardly on her one good hand so that Mulder
could massage her spine.  "I don't know...'be happy'?"

Mulder laughed.  "That's it?  'Be happy'?  I don't think it'll knock 'waste
not, want not' out of the top ten proverb list, Agent Scully."

"Didn't hear you do better."

Mulder stopped rubbing Scully's back for a moment and considered.  He clicked
his fingers.  "Got one.  How about 'any view of things that is not strange is
false'."

"That's not half bad.  Where'd you get that one?  The Zen Buddhist?"

"I'm afraid not.  That came from 'The Sandman'.  A comic book, would you
believe."

Scully laughed against the back of her hand.  "You live your life by something
you read in a comic book?"

Mulder reached behind himself and fished out a cushion.  He cuffed her lightly
across the head with it.  "Don't mock.  It's as good a way as any other."

Scully batted the cushion out of his hand.  "If you weren't blind, I'd take
you outside and stake you out for the raccoons," she threatened.  She slapped
his knee.

"Threats?  And after I rubbed your back for you, too...I'm hurt."  Mulder
smiled.

Scully was beginning to feel the initial effect of the whiskey wear off.  What
replaced it was a warm, gentle glow.  She sought a name for it and found one:
_trust_.  She leant her arms on Mulder's leg and placed her chin on them.
"What're you thinking about?" she asked.

Mulder gave a lopsided grin.  He too was feeling the initial effect of the
alcohol fade away.  Like Scully, he felt the warmth that remained.  Unlike
her, though, he felt no need to name it, to pin it down.  "Nothing," he said.

"Nothing?  Ten million years to evolve a brain of that size and complexity and
you're using it to think about nothing?"

Mulder listened to the wind slam about the house.  Without thinking, he
reached a hand out into the darkness and she took it in one of her own.  She
pressed it against her cheek.  Her skin was warm, soft.  He could feel the
very corner of her mouth against his palm.  He smiled.  "Precisely nothing.
If it took that long to evolve a brain big enough to think about zilch, then
it must be the highest form of thought, right?"

"Was that Zen, comic book, or Mulder?" Scully asked.  She yawned suddenly and
covered her mouth with her hand, letting his go for a moment.  Her cheek
tingled for a moment with the memory.

Mulder grimaced.  "I need to stretch."  He got up and arched his back,
stretching his arms and almost touching the ceiling.  He then sat on the floor
with his back to the chair.  "That was a Mulderism," he said.  "Write it down.
There may be questions later."

Scully smiled and shifted so that her back lay against his chest.
Automatically, his arm tucked over her shoulder.  They sat like that for a
while; neither felt the need to speak, nor was there anything that really
needed to be said.  After a while, Scully took his hand.  A little while after
that, she drifted silently into sleep, leaving Mulder alone with the sound of
the fire and the smell of her hair, the feel of it against his cheek.

A little while later, Mulder slipped into dreams after her.

*****

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From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF: Last Light -- Part F/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:34:48 GMT
 

Last Light -- Part F

Scully dreamed she was back in the car after their crash.  She knew what would
happen next; she knew that in a moment Mulder would wake also.  Then they
would discover his blindness, they would find the cabin.  Then...

The corners of her mouth curled upward in her sleep.  Dreaming, she thought:
_If he had made to kiss me tonight, I would have let him.  Trust."_

But now she was back in the car, and the warmth of the cabin seemed very, very
far away.  _Any view of things..._ she thought as she gazed through the
windshield at the forest.  Had that been said yet?  Or was it to come?  Did it
matter?

There was a flicker of movement to the side.  Mulder's side.  She turned her
head.  There was pain from her ribs and her wrist, but neither felt so bad.
Dreaming, after all.  Mulder was still out cold, his forehead resting on the
steering wheel.

There was the movement again, and suddenly there was a man by Mulder's window.
Scully sighed with relief:  someone to help them!  _But this didn't happen!_
she thought.  _It didn't happen!_

Her relief curdled in her, became fear.  She smelt trees, and dark earth, and
pine needles.  The man wore a black and red checked shirt, jeans.  His face
was indistinct through the dirt on the glass.  His eyes flicked up at
Scully's.

_Oh god, he sees me,_ she thought.

The figure reached out a hand.  A nagging sense of familiarity overtook her,
siphoning away some of the fear.  The hand rested on the window for a
second...and then passed through it as though it were water.

Scully's eyes felt as wide as saucers.  _Dreaming,_ she thought, _just
dreaming..._

The hand rested on Mulder's forehand for a second, and Scully wanted to fight,
to scream, to tear that impossible caress away from her partner's skin.  _No!
No!  Mulder!_  Pinned to the seat by the weight of her dreaming mind, she
could only howl into her own mind, only claw into the shadows of her own
thoughts.

Then the hand lifted, was withdrawn.  The man bent forward and whispered to
her in a voice that sounded like the sighing of the wind through the trees:

_You are not dreaming.  You are remembering, so remember well._

Scully felt a chill that often accompanied her nightmares, reminding her that
this was only a dream.  _Wake up!_ she told herself, trying to force herself
from the dream.  But her subconscious refused to release her.

She saw the dream figure put his hand on Mulder again, this time passing it
gently over his eyes.  It made Scully think of the way that people close the
lids of someone who has just died.  _But Mulder isn't dead_, thought Scully.
_He's just blind._

And with that thought still on her mind, she slipped from the dream into a
deeper, thoughtless sleep.

*****

"No!"

The first thing Scully was conscious of was the pain of her hand being
crushed.  _What's happening?_ her brain asked frantically as she tried to free
herself from the tendrils of sleep.  She knew that, once awake, her first
order of business was to loose her hand from whatever was crushing it.***

"No!"

Scully heard the voice again and this time realised it was not part of a
dream.

"Mulder, wake up," she said, nudging him and attempting to free her hand from
his crushing grip.  When he didn't respond, she practically shouted in his
ears, "Mulder!"

This time he jumped awake with a start.  It took him a moment to recognize the
situation, and then he immediately let go of Scully's hand.

"Are you okay?" he asked worriedly.  "Did I hurt your hand?"

"No," Scully fibbed, rubbing her hand.  "I'm fine.  But are YOU okay?"

But Mulder didn't seem to have heard.  "They were taking her, Scully.  They
were taking her away with them.  But this time I held on.  I held on, Scully,
and I wouldn't let her go.  But they took her anyway."

As Mulder spoke, Scully could see the frightened twelve-year-old boy,
struggling to hold onto his sister.  No wonder he had crushed her hand -- he
had been trying to reverse the terrible events of his childhood.

"They took her and I couldn't stop them."

As the dream slunk away, Scully could see the years of grief descend upon
Mulder anew.  He looked about to cry, and Scully's heart went out to him.  She
reached around him in a comforting hug, but immediately his back stiffened
awkwardly.

Scully quickly pulled back.  "I'm sorry," she mumbled, not sure what she was
apologizing for but feeling like she'd somehow crossed a line.

"No, I'm sorry," he said, feeling guilty about his reaction.  "I...it's
just...I guess I'm used to dealing with it alone."

"You don't have to, you know," Scully said gently, taking his hand.  "I'll
always be here for you."

"Is that a promise?"

Scully smiled and nodded, though she knew Mulder couldn't see.  "Yes, it's a
promise."  She squeezed his hand.

He squeezed back.  "Then can I ask you for a favor?"

Scully looked at Mulder warily.  "What?"

"Would you mind getting up?  My foot is completely asleep."

Scully quickly moved away.  "You better wake it up..."

"It won't sleep through the night," Mulder finished with her, and they both
laughed.  Mulder shook his foot, trying to increase the circulation to it.  As
Scully watched him, she was reminded of something, something from her dream.
But she couldn't quite remember what it was.

"Do you believe in fate, Dana***?" Mulder asked out of the blue as he sat himself
down again.

Although Mulder could not see, he could somehow _sense_ that she was giving
him one of her looks.

"What do _you_ think?"

"But don't you think that lots of things in life are more than just
coincidences?"

"Such as?"

"Such as the two of us becoming partners."

"Fate didn't make us partners, Mulder; Blevins did!"

"But I've had partners before; you met Jerry.  But I've never had such a..."
he paused to find the word, "...connection with any of them before you.  I
think you and I were _meant_ to be partners."

"I'll admit that we do make a good team, but I don't see that fate had
anything to do with it."

"Well then, what about the fact that our car crashed in the middle of nowhere,
yet this cabin was within walking distance?  This cabin in which strange
things have happened, and possibly someone was killed!  You can't consider
_that_ mere coincidence."

"Here comes the ghost theory again," Scully mumbled.

"Seriously, Scully, don't you think fate might've played a role?  Perhaps we
were meant to stumble upon this crime scene.  Or maybe this was fate's way of
telling us that we needed to spend more personal time together outside of
work."

"That's a good line, Mulder," Scully teased.  "Does it work on all women, or
just ones you work with?"

Mulder didn't understand at first, but when the realisation hit he began to
laugh.

"Actually," he said, "it hasn't worked on _any_ women yet."  He sighed in mock
exasperation.  "But I can keep dreaming, can't I?"

"Dreaming..." Scully murmured.  Memories of the dream Mulder had awakened her
from flickered across her mind.  She frowned.  "I think..."

She trailed off, not sure what she had been meaning to say.  She put her back
to the chair and hugged her knees.  Mulder slipped his arm around her
shoulder, and she rested against his chest.

"Do you?" Mulder asked, smiling.

Scully glanced up at him.  "It has been known to happen," she said.  "I think
I saw the man who ran into the road, Mulder.  I think I saw him, but I only
remembered just now, while I was dreaming.  He was wearing...a checked shirt?"

Mulder concentrated.  "Yes...yes, I think he was.  But that could have been a
lucky guess."

"You're starting to sound like me, Mulder.  And it could have been, but the
details...there were so many little things that were right.  With all that
happened, perhaps the memories only had the chance to surface now?"

Mulder shrugged.  "That's plausible, I suppose."  He grimaced.  "You're right,
I _am_ starting to sound like you.  What else happened in this dream?"

"He reached in through the window and touched your face...and he
said...something about this being a memory and not a dream...maybe that was me
talking to myself?"

"Why, Agent Scully, we'll make a believer out of you yet."

Scully pulled a face.  "Not likely, Agent Mulder.  Just because I happen to
have a recurring memory...What time is it, anyway?"

Mulder brought his watch up to his face automatically.  Scully felt badly for
him when she saw the look of confusion surface on his face.  "Sorry," she
said, "I'd forgotten."

"So had I," Mulder said.  He sighed deeply.  "So had I, my dear."

Scully took his hand and squeezed it.

Mulder swallowed.  "You know what I'm going to do if my sight never comes
back?" he said.

"No, what?"

He smiled, but it was an effort for him, she saw.  So unlike his usual grin.
"I have absolutely no idea.  None at all."

"Oh, Mulder..." Scully searched for something to say.  "Mulder...you took a
knock on the head...it could clear up any time now."

Mulder said nothing.  She knew he didn't need to:  what she had said was so
slight that you could shine light through it.  His condition might indeed
resolve itself.  But...it might not.  And with no medical equipment there was
no real way of knowing.

Scully sighed frustratedly.  "How did we get into this situation, Mulder?"

Mulder smiled.  "I guess you wouldn't appreciate my bringing up fate again."

"You read my mind."

"I thought you didn't believe in telepathy," Mulder teased, his mood
lightening.

Scully grinned and snuggled closer to him.  Closing her eyes, she mumbled,
"I'm sleepy, aren't you?"

"Actually..." he began but then trailed off.

"What?" Scully prompted.

"I'm...I don't want to go back to sleep right now -- perchance to dream, you
know."

Scully nodded and squeezed his hand.  "Sure."  She sat up and said, "Tell me
about England."

"What?" Mulder asked, thrown by the abruptness of her question.

"Well, I know you went to school in England, and I know about..."  Scully
trailed off, not sure whether she should bring up his ex-girlfriend's name.

"Phoebe," Mulder said for her.

Scully nodded.  "But you never talk about it -- England, I mean.  Didn't you
enjoy living over there?"

Mulder shifted against the chair.  He was silent for a while, and Scully began
to wonder if he had fallen asleep after all.  She was just about to drift away
herself when his voice brought her back.

"I did and I didn't," he said.  "It's like anything, I guess...you take the
good with the bad."

Scully leaned back against his chest.  She was tempted to ask which category
Phoebe fell into, and wondered at the source of the temptation.  "Was the
study hard?" she asked instead.

Mulder paused for a moment, and Scully realised that he most probably knew the
question that she had meant to ask.  She fought down a blush.

When he spoke, it was slow, measured, as if he was carefully turning each word
over before letting it loose.  "It was hard, but at the time I was...driven,"
he said.  "I wanted to be -- _had_ to be -- the best, to understand
everything..."  He shrugged.  "The study _was_ my life for a while.  Until I
met Phoebe.  Before, it was all for Samantha..."

Mulder trailed off, his brow drawn tightly into a grimace of pain or
concentration.  Scully took his hand and squeezed it gently.  Mulder started
slightly as if recalled from a light sleep.

"After I met Phoebe," he continued, "things changed, in a way.  Now I was
working hard not for my own reasons, but to please her, to make her proud of
me.  And, after a while, we started...seeing each other."  He sighed.  "We
were so...strong together.  After a month of seeing her, I was head over heels
in love.  There was nothing I wanted more than to be with her.  And she knew
it, I think."

"She didn't feel the same way?"

"I think...maybe she did.  But then, most things with Phoebe were a means to
an end.  Not that she was stringing me along, just that, for her, everything
had to have a purpose."

"Even your relationship?"

"Even that.  Maybe especially that.  With hindsight, she was never as open
with me as I was with her."  Mulder swallowed, and Scully squeezed his hand in
silent sympathy.  "I told her...everything.  Samantha, my family..."

Mulder fell silent again.  His head dropped to his chest, and his eyes closed.
This time, Scully held her own questions in check.  When her partner spoke
again, his voice was filled with the brittle effort of control.

"Then she took what I'd told her and she...used it for an assignment:  'The
Effects of Post-Trauma Stress'.  All of it.  Everything I'd told her.
Samantha, how my family treated me after...all that...pain and anger.  She
used it all, wrote it all down and handed it in.  She even contacted my
parents, posing as my tutor, saying that I had been falling behind."  Mulder
laughed suddenly, harshly, and Scully jumped a little.  "She got a very good
mark for it too.  My whole life, cut open and examined...And do you know how I
found out?  We shared a tutor for that class.  When the assignments were in,
he photocopied hers and handed it around, saying that it was a model
answer..."

Scully fought for something to say, some words she could offer to her partner.
"Oh, Mulder," she murmured softly.  She reached up and touched his face.  "I'm
sorry...I shouldn't have asked."

Mulder pushed his cheek gently against her hand.  "S'okay kiddo," he said.
"It was a long time ago..."

"In a galaxy far, far away?"  Scully replied lightly, hoping to lift his mood
a little.

To her relief he smiled, the clouds above his brow breaking up a little.  "You
said it."  He yawned.  "So anyway, that was that.  I told her to get the hell
out of my life, and she did.  I threw myself at the books...and the rest, I
guess, is history."  He yawned again and rested his chin on the top of her
head.  "I think maybe I could sleep a little now," he said.

Scully snuggled against his chest.  She yawned as well, covering her mouth
with the back of her hand.  "Sleep sounds like a very good idea," she
murmured.

*****

It might've been the whiskey they'd consumed earlier.  Or sheer exhaustion.
Or the comfortable warmth of each other's closeness.  But whatever the reason,
they both slept through the rest of the night without incident.

When Scully finally did awake, it was already light out.  She glanced up at
her sleeping partner, grateful that he was finally getting some good sleep.
She closed her eyes, hoping to fall back asleep herself, but after a few
minutes she gave up on that idea.  She opened her eyes and realised something
was vaguely different now.  The room was deadly quiet, except for Mulder's
slow, steady breathing.  And there was something else, too.

She was warm.  And it wasn't just the heat of Mulder being so close.  The air
in the room was decidedly warmer.  Scully realised that perhaps the storm had
finally passed during the night, and a hope flickered through her mind.

As gently as she could, Scully removed Mulder's arm from around her and stood
up.  Her ribs groaned in pain, and she reminded herself that she needed to try
to avoid excess activity if at all possible -- all this running around now was
going to length her recovery when they finally got out of here.  So she
slowly, carefully, made her way to the window.

Her assessment had been correct -- the low clouds were gone, and she could
even see a sliver of blue sky off to the West.  And the wind was no longer
howling around the cabin, plunging the room into silence.

Scully breathed a sigh of relief, realising that they might be able to walk
out of here today.  Of course, the snow was still piled high outside the
cabin, but Scully didn't want to think about that right now; she wanted to
cling to her hopes, at least until she was more awake and better able to deal
with reality.  She made her way to the bathroom, thankful for the modern
conveniences.  She then went to the kitchen in search of breakfast.

As she was prying open a can of chicken soup with Mulder's knife, a movement
outside the kitchen window caught her eye.  She looked and saw it was a
straggly dog, scratching at the garbage sack that sat against the metal bin
outside.  _Why wasn't it put inside the bin?_ Scully wondered to herself.
_After all, that's probably what the bin was for, to prevent dogs from getting
into the trash._

"What's for breakfast?"

Mulder's voice so close made Scully jump.  "I...uh...chicken soup."

"What is it?" Mulder asked, sensing her unease.

"There's a dog outside."

"That _would_ make a nice change from soup," Mulder teased.

But Scully didn't notice.  "It's scratching at a garbage sack."

"So?  That's what dogs _do_."

"But why wasn't the sack put in the metal bin?" Scully asked.  "I've got a
funny feeling about that sack."

Mulder looked surprised.  "Finally following a hunch, Agent Scully?"

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From: willis@nauvax.ucc.nau.edu
Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative
Subject: XF: Last Light -- Part G/H
Date: 11 JUL 95 02:41:10 GMT
 

Last Light -- Part G

Scully frowned.  "We already know that someone broke in..."  She put
the soup tin down and went to the living room.  She slipped on her
winter coat and tucked her gun into one of the pockets.  "Stay
there,"  she called to Mulder.

"Scully..."  he called back from the kitchen, his voice tinged with
mild annoyance.

Ignoring his protest, she unlocked and opened the back door.  At the
sound of the latch the dog took to its heels, probably mindful of
previous painful encounters near the cabin.

Despite the passing of the storm, the outside air was still cold
enough to frost her breath.  Scully scanned the tree-line, wondering
why she should be so on edge.  Perhaps it was the gap between the
cabin and the trees, making her feel exposed.

She moved closer to the bin, her nose wrinkling at the rank smell.
As she hoisted the sack up onto it so that the dog wouldn't return,
she peered past the locked grill that covered the bin.  She frowned;
it was empty inside.

The snow was already freezing her toes and soaking through her shoes,
and she was about to examine the sack when she noticed that the door
to the garage was open a little.  The hairs on her neck began to rise
and she shivered, trying to tell herself it was just because of the
chill.

She stepped closer to the door and then froze; where the lock should
have been was a hole.  Around the gap were deep score marks, made by
someone fighting for purchase with a crow bar.

"Scully?  You OK?"  Mulder's voice made her start.

"Fine.  Just stay there."

"This invalid thing is starting to lose its appeal, you know!"

"Right, right," Scully murmured under her breath.  She stood in
front of the damaged door, considering  her options.  The thought
that the intruders might still be hiding inside weighed heavily
on her mind.  There was no way that they could be surprised now.
She took her gun from her pocket and pulled back the slide.
"Mulder," she called, hoping that her partner would hear the
urgency in her voice and not ask questions, "you'd better call in
for some backup."  She guessed that it never hurt to let the bad
guys think that they were outnumbered, even if they weren't.

Thankfully, Mulder picked up her tone.  "Will do!"  he called back.
Looking through the kitchen window, Scully saw him raise his hands in
a "what's going on?" gesture.

Knowing that there was nothing she could do to reassure him, she
called back: "It looks as though the garage door has been tampered
with."

Scully padded through the snow to the corner on the garage.  Hoping
that exposure to the elements had not rusted the hinges, she took a
grip on the corner of the door with her good hand and pushed up.
Luckily, the door had been well oiled, and it rose smoothly and
rapidly.

Scully paused, listening intently.  There was no sound from within
the garage, so she risked a quick peep around the wall.  Thankfully,
there seemed to be no one there.  The garage was occupied only by an
old, beat-up sedan car.  Scully sighed with relief; she could see
that the seats of the vehicle were empty from her vantage point.  She
began to relax.

And then froze, her breath catching.  One of the tires was flat.
And, almost hidden by the shadows cast by the door, there was what
was unmistakably a bullet hole in the trunk.  Scully raised her gun
again, knowing that she and Mulder were alone, but wanting the
comfort anyway.

Alone...she found herself wishing fervently that Mulder were beside
her, covering her back.  She mentally shook herself, dismayed and
perhaps a little thrilled at how dependent they had grown on one
another.

She stepped into the garage.  There was a cord dangling from the
ceiling, and she tugged it, switching on a bare light bulb.  She
approached the car warily, nerves jangling like discordant wind
chimes.  In addition to the hole in the truck, there was another in
the right fender and a number of dents and scrapes along the bodywork
that looked as though they had been made by impacts with other
vehicles or obstructions.  And there was blood spattered on the back
seat.

"Oh, dammit," she whispered to herself.  She clicked off the light.

****

Later that morning, after they had eaten, Mulder called them to what
he termed a "council of war".  They sat in the living room, in front
of the fire.

"OK," Mulder began, "let's review what we know.  Someone broke in
here before we did.  I'd guess that this is a summer home, hence the
lack of fresh food.  Obviously, they're not here now, so where are
they?"

Scully massaged her wrist.  She had a nasty feeling that there was a
long period of painful and possibly undignified physiotherapy looming
in her future.  If they _had_ a future.  "The flat tire suggests that
maybe our hypothetical housebreakers went into town for a spare.
Alternatively, the blood on the car seat and in the bathroom might
mean that one or more of them needed medical attention."

Mulder nodded.  "Sounds plausible," he said.  "Perhaps this was just
a hunting accident and they needed shelter?"

"And the bullet holes?"

Mulder grinned.  "Maybe the deer have been granted the right to bear
arms?"

Scully threw a cushion at him.  "Try and be serious," she said,
although she wasn't annoyed; she knew that Mulder's first response to
stress was to crack jokes.

"Ok, Ok," he said, holding up his arms to ward off further missiles.
"Perhaps...an accidental shooting?  Or maybe a bar brawl that got
out of hand?"

Scully nodded.  "Maybe.  That would seem to fit what we have so far.
Any ideas about what to do next?"

"Could we walk out?"

Scully considered.  She sighed; much as it was an attractive idea,
she didn't think they would make good enough progress through the
snow to make it to a town before nightfall.  "No," she said "I don't
think that we can rely on the weather to hold."

"Ok.  The problem is, of course that as soon as the weather clears,
our friends will come back."

Scully thought for a moment.  "Not necessarily.  Why should they?
They could just as easily find a new car in a town.  Why would they
come back to retrieve a vehicle so obviously tainted?"

"Good point.  With any luck, they'll be halfway across the country by
now."

Scully sighed.  "Hopefully.  But I'm not holding my breath."

"Don't.  I don't want you to die from lack of oxygen."

Scully picked up a cushion but decided at the last moment not to throw it at
him.

"What kind of soup do you want for lunch?" she asked, not really hungry but
anxious to do something.

"Lunch already?  We just had breakfast!  Not that it's very easy to tell with
soup at every meal."  Mulder grinned.  "I wonder how long it'll take after we
get out of here before we actually find soup appetizing again."

"I'm just glad it's not Ramen," Scully said.  "Ever since medical school, I
haven't been able to even look at Ramen noodles without stressing out!"

"What was that like?" Mulder asked.

"Stressing out?"

"No, medical school."

"Oh...that," Scully said.  "Well, it was...medical school."

"C'mon, Scully.  I spilled my guts about England -- fair's fair."

Scully sighed.  "I'm not sure what to say.  I don't really think I agree with
how it's set up -- I mean, they purposefully make it overly stressful.  I know
they do it to weed out the bad ones, but I saw a lot of friends who would've
made great doctors fall by the wayside because of it."

Mulder could hear the tone in her voice, prompting him to ask, "Including
you?"

Scully was silent for a few moments before answering.  "My parents thought
that my decision to go straight into the Academy after graduation was an act
of rebellion, but really..."  Scully paused.  "...I guess I was scared."

Mulder looked surprised.  "Of what?"

"Of not making it."

"But you already HAD made it.  You'd survived the worst part."

"But I hadn't done my residency yet.  And maybe I wouldn't have survived
that."

"Dana Scully, I refuse to believe that.  You're one of the best doctors I've
ever seen."  Before she could respond, he continued, "And I'm not just saying
that, either."

"But sometimes I wonder 'what if', you know?  Maybe I could've made a
difference."

"You saved my life," Mulder said quietly.  "It may not seem big to you, but it
mattered a lot to me."

Scully reached out and took his hand.  "It matters to me, too."

They both sat there quietly for a moment, not needing to say anything.  The
silence was finally broken by a rumbling in Mulder's stomach, which caused
them both to laugh.

"I guess that's my cue to go make lunch," Scully said, letting go of Mulder's
hand and standing up.  "What kind do you want?"

"What haven't we had yet?" Mulder asked, getting to his feet and making the
now familiar trek to the kitchen.

"I think split pea and bean with bacon."

"Well, considering that we're trapped together inside this small cabin, I
think that perhaps we should forego the bean soup."

"Split pea it is then," Scully said.

As Mulder reached the kitchen he tilted his head, listening intently.  "What
is that noise?"

Scully listened and then glanced out the window.  The dog was back, along with
a few of his friends.  And they had somehow gotten the garbage sack down from
the bin and were proceeding to fight over its contents.

"Dammit!" Scully said, rushing to get her gun again.

"What?!" Mulder asked frantically.

"Dogs!" Scully said, running outside.  When the dogs refused to scatter from
her yelling, she pointed the gun in the air and shot.  The dogs yelped and
ran off in different directions, letting Scully get a good look at what they'd
been fighting over.  And despite Scully's background with autopsies, the sight
still surprised her, for, laying there on top of the snow, was a hand.

Scully fought down a wave of nausea and leaned over to get a better look.
Yes, it was most definitely a human hand.  It had been severed just above the
wrist; Scully had seen similar exhibits when studying gangland hits, but she'd
never seen one outside of a lab.  The purpose was usually to prevent victims
from being identified, and Scully wondered why such a thing would be out here
in the middle of nowhere.

Although the thought did not exactly appeal to her, she decided she better
search the sack for the other hand which was no doubt there.  As she picked up
the sack, her breath caught.  For there inside was a red and black checked
shirt.  Exactly like the figure in her dream.

"Mulder!"

Scully was surprised when she looked back at the cabin and no longer saw
Mulder at the kitchen window.  He had been so anxious to find out what she was
doing earlier, so she wondered why he was now gone.  She placed the hand
inside the sack and carried it back to the cabin.

"Mulder!" she called as she walked into the house and quickly locked the door
behind her.  "Where are you?!"

****

Mulder had heard Scully dash outside, then a shot from her pistol.  He
pounded his fist on the kitchen counter in frustration, cursing under
his breath.  The fact that he couldn't help her dug at him like a
thorn, despite the fact that he knew she was capable of handling
herself.

He heard a series of yelps and presumed that Scully had fired the
shot to scare the dogs away.  He craned forward, his eyes straining,
but his sight resolutely refused to clear or even offer him the
tiniest clue as to what might be going on.

He was about to try and navigate his way to the door when he felt a
curious prickling sensation at the back of his neck.  He turned
around slowly.

There was a glimmer in the forefront of his vision, as though he was
seeing a fire lit on a hillside many miles away.  He raised his hands
and rubbed his eyes, hoping despite his own limited medical knowledge
that his sight would return to him.

For a moment, it seemed as though his wordless prayer was being
answered: the light grew stronger, and he began to see shapes
coalescing out of the haze.  The worktop, the stools around it.
He reached out and ran his hand across the formica counter,
reassuring himself that he was truly seeing it and that it wasn